Oh God, Please help me

I am not quite sure, if I believe in God. Yes, I do pray, go to worship places. Does it all mean that I am a devotee of God?

So far, I didn’t dare to question the existence of God.

Maybe I was confused. If I say something against God, will it cause any trouble in my life? These thoughts haunted me, maybe or may not be .. I am not quite sure.

But it seems, one thing is pretty clear to my confused mind now, i.e. If God is there really, he will never cause any harm to me only because of my question upon him.  If he did, then no more evidence required to prove his absence.

If your prayers came fruitful, why can’t it be just some coincidences?

Earlier my mind was unwilling to shoot like this. But now I am quite sure that he can only help me to prove his existence and won’t do any harm on me, if he is the real Hero.

Why he resides only in worship places, why do we need to struggle to meet him, may be even after a long queue?

Does he need to be satisfied with all these pujas and prayers to open his eyes..?

Does God really want you to go to these worship places to meet him?

Oh God, please help me to have an answer.. Yes, I am also calling him..

I am neither an atheist, nor a blind lover of science.

I feel like, “

God is a state of mind, soothing oneself.

Step back from the people who are trying to market this state of mind, selling Gods.

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