Am I losing the innocence?

Are you able to control instant pulse generated?

Heard something interesting over TV, while you were reading. Can you continue reading without looking at TV?

These are two instances. If one can have a pause in between these two, he/she can decide her next action, whether to look at TV or continue reading or something else.

Our usual reaction will be to look at TV. May be after some time only, we will be realizing that we were distracted from reading, by our instant pulse.

May be, that is our innocent reaction to watch TV.

May be, that is our lively response.

Now, isn’t it a bit rude upon ourselves, if we are controlling those instant pulse?

So I doubt, if I am losing that innocence.. I doubt if I am not lively..; )

In fact, that controlling is not at all my cautious decision, which happens naturally with 80 % of my actions. TV the simplest of them

Or is it like I am getting saturated?

Or am I going to be a saint..  ; )